As we go through the adoption process through the county, I will share as I feel God leads. Right now we are in the waiting stages. Although all the homestudies, backgrounds and paperwork are complete, this is not the easy stage of the process. It can actually be one of the most difficult because there is nothing to work on...it is strictly a time to pray and see what God desires. He calls us to "be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10
Last week we were called to see if we would be interested in a child. I will leave out specifics in the interest of protecting all involved. But when I receive a call like this, what I hear is...
Do you promise to love this child with an unconditional love? Do you promise to protect her at all costs? Do you promise to provide for her, for her whole life? Are you committing your whole heart now, without even knowing who she is? Are you willing to love her now, knowing she may never come to your home?
So the question is not are we interested?? It is more, are we willing? The minute we said yes, we were saying yes to all of these questions. Which means, during the couple of days we waited to find out if she was coming to our home, we envisioned our life with her. Transforming our minds to include her in our family, knowing full well that we may not be picked. Knowing that if she went somewhere else, our hearts would be broken. Dave and I feel like you have to have your whole heart in each situation if you are going into this process. It can be exhausting but his child deserves that!
Friday, we found out she went to another home. We know that for those short days she was brought into our life for a reason. Whether God wanted us to be praying for her or if He was using her to prepare our hearts, we don't know. But we know God has a purpose and a plan. And His plan is perfect.
So today, we go back to waiting and praying. Praying for patience and for God's will. For our hearts to be prepared for what is to come and for the protection of our child or children.
To my special friends that are in this exact stage right now ( you know who you are) , I am also praying for your families and children. May God bring you a perfect peace!
