So I feel like I have lived a few lifetimes since my last post. In that time I have really struggled with so many things, but I haven't been able to write about it.My hope is that I will get to soon. Recently I have been questioned about the content of my blogs and what I write about. So I took some time to evaluate my heart and figure out why I write. What I realized during this time, is why I actually blog.
I originally started blogging so that I could put it together for my children someday. But now I realize my blogging isn't necessarily for them. It is not really for my friends to keep up to date on the intimate details of my life. It isn't to brag about what I am doing with my life or how great my family is.(If it comes off that way, I don't mean it to). In fact, I feel like I use it for a completely different reason.
I write because it is my own therapy. I honestly believe that when I share with you, it is actually God sharing with me on what I need to work on. So you are actually getting my inequities and failures of where God wants me to work. You are getting a front row seat to my relationship with God. I believe God gets me to sit down and just listen as I write. Then I get to go back and read through what he needs me to know and understand. I know this may sound really weird, but I know it is exactly correct.
Now I know I could just write these things and never post them and just leave them for me. However, I do believe that even if one person can get an insight to certain struggles or scripture that I have shared, then it was worth it. My heart's desire is for you to see how incredible our God is and if He can work in a person like me,there is hope for everyone. My life is not an example of what God would want for anyone. I have sinned and failed over and over. But through Christ, all is forgiven and forgotten. So through my blog I will not cease to sing His praise!
